Million Pound Matchup!

Sooo the hardest thing for me has been making myself pack a lunch for work. I then end up either not eating all day which I know is bad, or eating something I shouldn't have. I need to make better choices for my day. With all that said I did manage to lose 10 lbs this past week. One good thing is I have been putting milk in my coffee versus half and half.

All for now.

So i havent written in a few days. So there is alot to catch you up on. My partner and I have not been able to see each other has often as i hoped we would. We have 2 totally different schedules and i really think that needs to change in order for me to motivate her and her me. I guess tonight's weigh in will prove if she has attempted to keep her word. And its def judgement day for me. Which brings me to my confession...

 

We went to a r-rated hpynotist saturday  night. I was with a bunch of my friends and i knew they would be drinking and i knew i would have a hard time not drinking. So in trying to prepare myself for what i knew would happen i saved up some calories that day so that i could have 2 beers and not feel guilty. Well we get there and i was fine at first i waited a while to order my first beer. Then my friend Matt hands me a cup for the pitchers that were on the table. Again i told myself thats ok you have one more beer left. So i waited a lil while and then i filled up my cup. The r-rated hypnotist was the FUNNIEST thing i have ever seen esp considering some of my firends were up on stage. At the same time this is going on i am text messaging with a few people who are giving me play by plays on the Patriots game i am a HUGE pats fan and why on earth i thought it would be ok to miss an hour of the playoffs i had no idea but boy im glad i did haha so needless to say since i was watching the show and texting i didnt feel like i was missing out by not drinking. But then the show ends and they clear away the tables and its time to hit the dance floor. I LOVE to dance but old habits die hard and before i knew it there was a greygoose and cranberry juice in my hands. I told myself that was gonna be it and i ran through my head all the reasons its should be. One i hadnt eaten much that day so it was going to hit me quick two i committed myself to making changes this year and three i really didnt want to have to face the scale knowing i had made a bad choice. well as the night wore on a few more drinks ended up in my hands and that was that. I only ended up going over by a couple hundred calories that night and i was burning calories from cutting a rug on the dance floor but it still wasnt right so here is my confession and my expression of guilt and my word to try and do better next time.

 

which brings me back to why the beginning of my blog sounded like i was hounding on my partner and i . she came over the other night for dinner and ended up getting a second helping of food. she just doesnt seem to go about this the right way and im trying to help her. she hasnt been eating alot during the day so at night its like she binges. so hopefully the lil pep talk i gave her will have had some effect. A while back we had written our an I WANT sheet where we each listed  the things we want our goals our reasons for wanting to loose weight so as she is eating that second plate i pulled that out and read them outloud needless to say she finished the second helping but i could tell it had gotten to her she then felt overfull and not too good and i just explained that even though you may have had room for all the those calories in your day its not good to have them all at once cause how ever much your stomach is shrunk its stretching it back out.

 

so i guess we will see tonight what has happened. I hurt my back so was in bed for a couple days and then i had that wild night and since then i have no gone to the gym. but i am leaving now to run a couple errands and at the end of those errands is the Gym on my to do list so i really hope i can get my ass there and not come up wiht excuses on the way. i am also going to the store to get a food scale cause im having a hard time judging what 4oz or whatever the serving of meat may be. with everything else its simple a cup of this of a half a cup of that but when it comes to ounces im having a hard time so i am going to get a scale so that im not hurting myself

 

calorie wise im still doing good i am not overeating but by not excercising im not so sure ill see a big number on the scale tonight. its technically tomorrow that makes a week but since both of us cant be together tomorrow we are gonna do it tonight after my yoga class which is another good thing i have done. i am teaching 2 yoga classes a week and im pretty amped about that cause bob is so big on yoga and i really think its going to help me out!

 

so here goes nothing im off and running to my LAST CHANCE WORKOUT! ill try and get updated pictures and the video of the first weigh in on here within the next couple days. Hope everyone out there is doing great!